"ACCEPT NOT JUST BEING ILL BUT ALSO THE PLACE IN WHICH YOU ARE ILL, AND THE PEOPLE THAT ARE WITH YOU WHEN YOU ARE ILL."
There are many routes to discernment of vocation and resources to explore. Some of them are named on this site as starting points in your search. As you explore these possibilities it is important to listen to both your head and your heart: to analyse what you are reading and seeing but also to notice what happens to your emotions, what do you warm to? What repels you? What challenges you? Take these thoughts and feelings into prayer and be guided through these pathways by God's presence within you.